today i have been watching"stepmom" movie starring julia roberts, susan sarandon and ed harris.................if you dont know the movie then this is an exhibit about it "ed harris "luke" is the ex- husband of susan sarandon "jacky" and julia roberts "isabel " is luke's much younger girlfriend............... the movie discusses the relationship between the two women and jackie's two kids .......... and the idea that both of them robert's and sarandon is having hard time coping......the former because the kids cant accept her as their mother when she is way far from being perfect in comparison to their mother and the latter because she is jealous that her kids would love isabel more than her from one side and the idea that she is terminally ill from the other side..................there is this amazing scene in the movie where harris and sarandon are sitting together in cafe and he was telling her that he is gonna propose to robert'sand sarandon cant bring herself to tell him that she has just discovered she had late stage cancer................. while he was enjoying the idea of starting a new life with a whole shot of new choices and expected happiness , she was fighting the idea that she may die within few months and in those she will have to keep fighting with the cancer and chemo......... this scene hit me so hard today it reminded me that i have been in the same feeling as her for the past year and a half .....while I was busy fighting for a career from one side and fighting my love from the other side.......there was someone who is busy getting successful in his life and moving forward........ i knew exactly how she felt.... the feeling that you are soooo left over and your life is just shit while life is giving the other part all he wishes for ...is so damn bad.............. and i asked myself"how can anyone forgive someone for making him feel so bad for so long
